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just a short blog,then will jump to bed.........................

      i just finished reign over me although it has been in my pc for quite a long time.the love of charlie to his wife and daughter touched me a lot though i do know its not a healthy way. how many guys could really love someone like that? how many guys will make themselves suffer cos of dead ppl?yeah,yeah,its not a good way,but somehow,it shows the strong love, i think many ppl value it, at least,i do, i value it sooooo much,i would be lucky enough to have a husband who love his wife that much like charlie do?i dont know,but i never won any lotto b4,so whats my luck?

okok,the result of the movie is charlie get out of extremely sadness under the help of his friends and hospital.

           JIMPING to somewhere, snore...............

         i went back home again on 17th,for Luca's B'Day,actually,it was about 3 ppl,but 2 of them cancelled it at the last min bbq started,which annoyed me a bot(between bit and lot),dont wanna mention it again, cos i heard anger do make ppl live shorter.anyway,Luca still kept it going on,i went to shopping mall with him just at the moment i got my city,helped him get everything prepared.then on 19th,our bbq started, in Longtan Park,actully,it was not our first choice,Luca said he had been to this park 100 times maybe. but without car,we cant go to the place far away with these much things.the point is having fun together somewhere,celebreate his birthday,and thats all.i would like to take as many pics as we can, but guys are just not so cooperative,they prefered to stand aside to watch,and asked why u girls are so into taking pics huh.whatever lah,just let them.but group pics are certainly available.

 

 

 

 

 

 

PICS ARE GOT FROM THE SPACE OF A FRIEND.

     以前老说，乡镇的人淳朴好客,没有真正细细体会过淳朴的真正含义。来乡镇医院上班有9个月余了，直到这段时间，我真正享受了一次所谓淳朴给你带来的温暖。

     在3月底（25号），想回柳州听一个concert，中午两点半下班，回到宿舍收拾些东西，提前一个小时出门前往车站，可是，到车站的汽车连影都没有，我不敢久等，等了15分钟以后我就决定自己走路，边走边等吧。走了好久，车还没有来，当然也没有看到车站的身影（确切地说我根本不知道车站到底离医院有多远，我只知道沿着这条路一直走下去没错，大约走了快30分钟，眼看火车到车站的时间要到了，我很着急，左顾右盼。这时一个骑着摩托车的，大约有40/50岁的人过来，我问他：“师傅，请问这离车站还有多远？”他一笑，说：“那还早了，姑娘你赶车啊？上来吧，我载你去。”我听了真是高兴，然后也有那么1%的担心，怕是坏人。我上了他的摩托车，他也一直沿着这条路往前，路上我们也没说什么，摩托车开得不快，我一直也注意时间，离火车到站还有15分钟的时候我忍不住了问他：“离车站还有多远？”“马上到了。”后来，在火车预计到达的时间前5分钟，我到车站了，然后赶紧下车，下车的同时我告诉他我在当地医院上班，在妇产科，想着将来也许我可以帮上他什么，赶紧道谢，他摆摆手：“小事小事嘛。你赶快过去上车吧，车可能马上到了。“我笑了一下，再说了声谢谢就走了。后来火车晚点15分钟，我按时上车，顺利到家了。都不知道这大伯姓什么。

    然后就在前天，29号上午，外婆过80大寿，得回他那一起庆祝。我这次提前了一个多小时出门，遇到一样的问题，这次可没有好心的大伯用摩托车载你去拉，怎么办，我等了半个小时。没有车影，都快放弃在这小镇上车了，打算用其他的方法。这时眼睛一亮看见一拖拉机，陆陆续续有人在上。我在想是不是这车到火车站啊，那我也可以顺路搭一下吧？我走过去，上面可以坐的地方都坐了人了，我问他们到火车站吗，他们你看看我，我侃侃你，然后其中一人问我“你的车几点到啊？”“8点40分。”“那不知道还来得及不，这拖拉机速度慢。”另外一个大婶接着说：“还有40 分钟呢，应该还来得及。”第三个人说：“现在马上走，应该还来得及的，不过现在司机不在，不知道他要等对久才到啊。”另外一个年纪轻点的：“到火车站的汽车也应该马上到了的。”..............（七嘴八舌.....）突然，有一个女的喊了一声，所有的讨论都停住了“司机来了，马上走了。”原来都在讨论的人，现在都马上在叫我赶快上来，然后他们帮我拿着东西，拉我上那拖拉机，要知道，我可是第一次坐这玩意（不是，没有坐的了，只有站的位置而已。）他们把他们放东西的地方腾出来，让我站到前面去，站后面危险啊。觉得好可爱的一群人。一车的妇女在帮你出主意，又一下全部安静了，让你赶快上车，然后把位置腾出来。后来我们就搭着这拖拉机一路颠簸到了粮所，粮所就在火车站对面，“车还没到，姑娘你赶快过去吧。”然后他们帮我拿这东西，我跳下拖拉机。道谢后过路等火车，后来一样等了10多分钟火车才到，最后一样是顺利上火车，顺利到达目的地。

     也许对社会冷酷的事情看得太多，突然有些惊讶我遇到了这档子好事，我告诉爸爸的时候，你猜爸爸问我什么：“他们只收你1块钱吧？”（因为坐汽车从医院到火车站是一块钱，虽然比较远）你看你看，当我告诉他没有人问我要钱的时候，他很惊讶。哎，我们生活在那种斤斤两两都算得很清楚的地方太久了。

     我要谢谢他们，谢谢这些帮我的人，谢谢你们。

 

最近有满多人都说"你都不上我空间灌水的!"我有苦衷拉，明显的啊,他们的空间要不就要密码，要不就一天写点天堂的东西，我看没懂就没有兴趣搞下一次了好灭?理解我这种纯理科的人,语言没过关，晓得我高考失败在哪灭?就是语文!所以拉，原谅我拉!
   田丽那个妹崽今天也让我去他空间，他老鸽子居然怪我,妈妈的列，他搞的新空间都没告诉我，还怪我不去波,奶那个扭!无奈!今天下班回来，去他新空间小瞄了一组，吗的,都是议论文,我好乱烦的,初中二年级开始学写议论文,虽然我的作文一般情况下还是可以的,但是你晓得灭?我最讨厌的就是议论文,初二那大半年的"每周一篇",搞死我克,不过还好拉，我幸存料.直到初三以后，改自由文体了，我才得回来继续我的记叙文,不说在行不在行，起码我不烦.一直到高三，记叙文都是我的主打歌.哪怕是现在，我的日志，不管中英文,都是记叙文体,或者说记叙占大部分，我喜欢记叙文拉,有事说事,不喜欢一天耍嘴皮子写什么议论!通篇的议论是我最腻的拉，有关生活的情感的还可以小读一下，那种什么国家大事的,我立马关克好灭?!几乱烦.没喊我浇水啊!
   也不是说我只喜欢看记叙文,其实我喜欢看的就是那种真真切切存在在周围的事情，喜欢看那种写自己心情的blog,这个才叫日志嘛,自己的空间用来记自己的东西不好咯?那种什么国家大事,不缺你这一个地方记录拉.如果这个人够勤快更新自己的日志，就可以从日志里面了解一个人的心路历程,以后回味起来那是很有意思的.以前我们小的时候没有搞什么空间,但是我有一段心路历程,记载在纸上，可以因为和妈妈赌气，全部烧掉了，后悔ING.那段经历是我人生里面比较重要的,但是我全部失去了，连痕迹都没有，好可惜.所以现在，我的心情，如果我觉得可以写出来,我就写在QQ或者MSN里面，MSN空间已经有差不多3年的历史了，QQ空间好象也是，不过QQ空间嘛,总是比较迟钝的,没大喜欢(这些年有点进步).MSN我大多数都写英文，有的很垃圾，不过回头看看，我以前的生活是这个样子的也可以了，我中文都没有什么文采,更不用说英文了，大俗人一个.别人看不看无所谓拉，我自己看得到就行.
   行了，牛就吹到这里了，本来好象有满多讲的,现在被分心料,然后看来chandana今天中午是不回家吃饭了的,得了，我洗澡完了打仗去.


  just saw the space of Zhang Lin,that sweet girl,she told me she will make something for those pics i took on my B'Day,well,was kinda looking forward to it,and tonight,i saw her space,but seems like all materia she used is made by me(most of them)?well,its fine lah,cos the pics i took are awesome,super me,haha.about my special B'Day,its special cos of a guy staying with us at that night.it just happened by accident,its not a tendency,not at all,so dont treat it so serious,its just something in fairytale though it looked like true.maybe its someone's fault to make it look like true.the stuffs that looked like in reality somehow brought me back to the passed time,woke up my feeling which has stood in the bottom of my heart for a few years,well,forget it,anyway,i finally got an answer from someone,its not out of my expectation,but still,kinda down of course,wonder how can i treat him like a common friend or so-called best friend? maybe i can,but need ages? and chandana sent something to me,felt like he started to test me or something like that,felt soooo frustrated,tears came out immediately at the moment i got his txt and his msgs,well,80% or above,the tears are not about the answer i got,its about the sms chandana sent me,well,but i wont blame him,its my fault and for him,its unfair,there was always an another guy stands in my heart,if i were chan,i cant bear it.ppl all told me its wrong to let chandana know all this,well,maybe they are right,but i just cant hide anything,no matter to that guy or chandana,im faithful,no lie,just wonder the point of being faithful to that guy?katy was right,whats the point of meeting that guy again?whats the point?guys are just that cruel,from katy's nigel to that guy i liked for ages,all is the same,how many innocent,sweet and responsible guys left in this wild world?chany may be a goodone,but hes even belong to me?hes really theone god sent to me?all right lah,chany is making his decision now,i dont know what decision would be,but i will respcet all he makes,hes a sweet little thing.(well,there is pity,cos i didnt take my cam support back my city,so there are few pics of me on my B'Day,shame shame shame)btw,chany sent me a birthday cake thought what written there is for elder,hehe,its all right lah,thank you,sweet baby, at last,i have a question to anyone who can read it:
          Which would you prefer? cruel truth or sweet lie? and why?

昨天中午和防疫组的医生下村去玩,天气还可以,现在写日志时间不够了，明天再写，先占个位置.

 

现在已经是２８号了，我的日志还没没完成呢，现在有点不想写了，写些其他的东西吧．

 

今天看了朋友的空间，里面的一点东西让我太有感触了．

最后一天和他说话的时候，他问我是不是开始讨厌他了，我和他解释了很多，我是想保护自己而已，保护我想保护的东西．

觉得感情的事情总是那么无奈．

    现在是凌晨了，我在等chandana回家,顺便也写写刚才发生的事情:

那8年的感情在今天(应该是昨天晚上10点)终于有个结果了，我全部说出来,如释重负,觉得舒服多了，然后也觉得自己实在太"童话"了,喜欢一个没有从来没有喜欢你的人，呵呵，不过他说喜欢和我说话，呵呵，算了.谢谢他能主动联系我，然后让我以为无底的感情有了个结果.深深地觉得藏着噎着实在不好受,我从初三就受害了好不好?呵呵,现在有点高兴，奇怪吧?知道喜欢的人不喜欢自己也高兴?其实不是这样的,我是觉得没有什么秘密了，以后说话也会自然好多,我可以做自己了.他说话有点部队腔了，居然问我老家是哪?现代人都不说这样的话吧?呵呵,好好玩.还有一点就是我们真的已经越走越远了,应该是两个世界的人了，当初的张佳鑫,我喜欢的那个,也许在我读初三的时候就消失了，现在的是一个有着相同外貌的陌生人,我悼念那个逝去的灵魂7年,很怀念.现在，我应该从怀念中醒过来，我有理由相信，我是一个完完全全快乐的人,不再有任何伤心的往事藏心底了，我高兴，我完完全全做自己.

对于这个拿着老张佳鑫躯壳的新张佳鑫,我还是希望他能一切都好,我还是很愿意当好朋友的,这种时候，成绩好不好应该不重要了吧,我不知道为什么以前那么小，都会有私心，我自己觉得，我喜欢和某个人在一起就在一起，想那么多干嘛,又想着成绩好不好，有没有钱,有没有权势,以后能有什么用处......那多累啊，我喜欢，我愿意，所以我和你做朋友，就那么简单.

chandana说如果做他的朋友，那就是一辈子的朋友，我觉得我也差不多是这样的人，我和你是知音,我就希望能一辈子都是，但是一旦伤心了，我应该是不回头的,现代人大多数都很冷漠，为的就是不伤心吗?付出的爱，不论是对友情还是爱情，可以等待，可以没有回报, 但是一旦遭到反叛，俱焚! 要知道，伤心是最难愈的.

好了，不说这种誓言一样的话，没有意思.

对张佳鑫,新的那个,做个好朋友，然后不想被伤心，呵呵.

对chandana,努力守着他,当然更不想被伤心.

然后奢望着被chandana和所有的朋友呵护到,哈哈，好蠢!!

chandana,快点回家........

      every chinese knows that this 7th Feb is the first day of 2008 in lunar calendar and its called chinese new year.its the real beginning of 2008 for me.

we went to bought something to paste on the windows and hang up, for the new year of course(saw that pinky car?i love this color)

 

i got a basket of flowers from chandana on the first day of 2008,happy....

 

on the second day of 2008,there was fireworks in the evening.dad,sister and me definitely went for it.

 

we high school classmates got reunion again on the 5th day of 2008

i love my class, love my classmates, enjoy being with them.

 

got back to work on 13th(it has been 16th now,hehe)

 

 

there is a pity,i didnt take pics with sister and dad at this time sister got back from shanghai,they were too busy to take pics,especially sister,even we were going to take studio pics,but......for taking pics with sister,probably,i have to wait another new year, for studio pics, i may take it on my B Day.

 

have good luck in 2008.

 

     i have not renew my space for quiet a time. the weather is supreme cold these days,everytime i wanna type something,i just felt my fingers frozen & cant move freely, that may be the main reason for no blog here.anyway,i post something NOW.

willl be 2008 soon,wanna do a sumary of 2007 and plan something of 2008 here.