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4/29/2009 There were 2 big events happened in my life, let me post them here one by one carefully:
i went to nanning on 25th, one of my couisns got married! Holding wedding celebration is soo troublesome, loads of chores need u to deal with!! i have to experience it too when im married? due to the history of my brother's celebration, i have a believe,this troublesome things make u get profit? brother did get! my cousin and her husband choosed a five star hotel to invite ppl having diner together, with bloody price. i dont know the gift they got is more than what they paid to hotel? i think its smarter to lower the cost. i will learn this classes  . i was thinking to have a sweet trips with my love only after marriage, but about celebration like that, can i skip other ppl?...... Well, my cousin was soo nice with her wedding gown, cousin told me its rent. i wanna buy my own wedding dresses when im at that moment! at least, for keeping my nice memory, its once in ur life! This is my cousin and her new husand!:P
 
i help ppl delivery for almost 2 years, in general,all of them were in normal, i never met postpartum hemorrhage(bleeding a lot after baby got born) although its the first reason maternity patient die in china. oh, i met one,when i was an intern, but i was just standing & learnning beside,that maternity patient died. yesterday, i met one myself, she bleed badly after giving birth, i could hear the drops fall into the barrel which is under the obstetric table. we gave her medicine, injection,massage uterus..... bleeding kept still  . she got soo pale, BPwas 80/50mmHg, she told me she felt soo sleepy and tired, she said she wanted to fall asleep! we kept talking with her to make her awake, luckily bleeding finally stopped after a while, it was about 600ml by estimated. after 2 hours,we sent her back to ward safely. this morning, i went to check her, not so pale as b4.,BP was 10070mmHg, in general,shes getting better. a frightening day.
4/5/2009
on 8th April 2008, i bought Hp V3808TU back home, since that day,we spend days together. its not the most powerful laptop, but fits me well. its birthday is coming in 3 days,i wish to say happy birthday to my laptop, i love u! i should do something epecial to celebrate it? umm,i really should! 
BTW, thank you Mr Chandana  3/9/2009 明天的下午3点半,我就足足的23岁啦,可是现在并没有那么excited去庆生,我很着急着做一件事,又没有头绪,没有思路。原以为,在家人冷战,没有闺中密友的情况下,没有人还记得明天是我23岁吧,没有人会给你个生日的surprise 昨天就打算想买个skype上的中国通400,没有任何网上银行的付款方式,只能求助朋友,也许他们忙着游戏,作业或者其他,没人回我,连平时我觉得对我好的人也告诉我没空。今天,居然帮我买下来了,告诉我是生日礼物。一个小小的意外。
明天我还是想买块蛋糕来吃,就算只有我自己,我也要吃个蛋糕。
别人23岁的生日都有什么一堆朋友啊,男朋友啊庆祝,我的就一个人,我不因比较这样的生日气氛难过,我只是想在我失去一样东西的时候,上天是赐予我另一样东西吧?如果是真的,如果我可以选,我就希望我今年在工作上有些好运气。
10号了,my heart shape cake,, with my favorite fruit & cute yellow!! happy 23th birthday!
2/23/2009 last year at this moment,i was in countryside and thought to visit peach blossom when i got back on my birthday. due to some reasons,i didnt go. and this year, i cant miss it ever. so yesterday,i went to Longtan Park with some friends. there is a field full of peach blossom.frankly,i went there to have some pics, i love pics.
it had been a long time since i was with my beloved peach blossom. the first time i met the lovely field was 10 years ago, and it was dad and mom took me there.the place i went with dad and mom was called island of peach blossom. it was in the suburb, and that was such an amzing place. heard that some part of it is re-bulit as golf course now.i couldnt go there this year cos its too far & i got up late. the flowers in Longtan park could satified me at least. it was the day of south wind, everywhere was dead wet! weather was tooo warm, i was with my coat  . so unbearable! i saw some ppl even with tshirt, my god, why north wind just couldnt come and make me feel comfortable?! actually,i knew wearing coat was a bit more for the weather, but my plan was to take pics with my new purplish pink coat in 2009! cant be ruin by the weather.so all the afternoon,i was suffering, for the good of my pics! so u may tell that my cheek was as reddish as the peach blossom?  just cant figure out why the temperature could be this high in Feb!!
and after i got home, noticed there were my beloeved fruit lying on the table! i love strawberry a lottttt  . there is only one pity in the spring of 2009, i didnt go to strawberry field to pick up some by myself. it has been 2 years since last time i did it! i took pics too but all pics gone with the broken hard drive! poor me! 
i took some pics of the strawberry bought from market too, will share it here to make u ppl mouth watering!  and some pics of me in peach blossom field.
2/18/2009 前些日子,柳州很热,正月里,居然有着30以上的高温,这是不正常的。我只顾着热了,没注意到春天已经在我周围。昨天,照常踩着单车上班,突然发现就在离家不远的例外一个居住区的大院里的那桃树开花了,开得很艳很艳,似乎已经忍不住地告诉人们,春天已经到了!树上的树叶早已出了新叶,嫩绿嫩绿的。在南方的冬天,树叶一般不像北方的先变黄,然后落下,整一冬天,树都是光杆司令;南方的树,任何时候都是绿的,只是新初的芽儿,和他们的老一辈相比,的确娇嫩得很,那鲜艳的颜色,就是在告诉人们,他们是充满活力的。去年的这个时候,我还在乡下上班呢,还记得那一地的油菜花,一眼看不到边界,不时的可以看到牛在犁田,在吃草。今天的这个时候,那地里的花也应该长得很好了。
今天下班回来,在本家属区的大院里面,发现这居然长着一颗梨树,我天天从树下走过,梨树很高,从没有注意上面长着什么,今天为了我的“09春天”专辑,到处寻找着,这才发现了,就在我窗户旁,我天天走的的那路上,有棵高大的梨树,没有树叶,就是花。
2/9/2009 today is the last day of our new year festival, and moon tonight is round too, lanterns are showed in the square.i was going there although i have had a general view of it last night. i charged my camera and going to take pics, but but........ right now, im here posting blog, i didnt move. no one would move with me, and im not interested in going crowded places alone,and it would be a bit dangerous for me. sigh, i thought i could take loads of pics back home to see at my 10pm 
i love those reunion days frankly, looking at all family members getting together to chat, to have dinner, to have fun, i just feel warm although at that moment, i dont talk too much.
i miss my autie, and the cousin in guangzhou, wish them good luck. 2/7/2009 "the biggest lie i gave u is i love you"
"i think its time to resign now"
............
fights happen often these months
sad, sick, tired & uninspired
for both of us
we are still death struggling
its like plane needs sometimes to land on well after long time flying i think?
after landing on, everything will be just fine?
tears came and dropped
just at the moment the icon turned grey
who gonna stay still beside?
a scar
will never be removed
some memory
will never be forgotten
sometimes, words are just words
wont be real ever after sometimes, words came true sooo fast
no one there to see at once
a dead-alive person
when would be my spring?
is there my spring?
1/29/2009 26th Jan was the first day of 2009 in lunar calendar,we have a few days off from 25th to 31th, it was supposed to be a holiday for rest, but feel tired,more exhausted than common days, we have to seperate these 7 days into a few parts, here comes the example of my family: on 25th, sister had to spent her new year eve outside, not with us, and wont be back till the morning of 26th, dad and mom were busy with preparing dinner, its a big work. and after the dinner, it would probably have been like 8, new year performace was boring.we had some talks, and thats it. at 10am in next morning, brother came to pick me, brought me to my biological dad, u know i have to/should visit him in festivals. after we met, dad and me went street, bought him a mobile(finally he agreed to have a way to let others contact him  ),i took him to KFC too, probably, the first time he ever be sitting there.
(due to full stomache, i need to have a walk, to be continue....)
ok, got back finally after 3 days,where were we?
ok, i brought dad to KFC in the afternoon at about 3pm,cos my last meal was at my 9am,we took hamburger and lemon juice with honey. dad loves honey!the first time dad took burger,he asked" the vegetable is done?" elders love to make everything done b4 taking them. when it was like 6pm,we went to dinner, had beef,mutton,tofu.... i was getting too full  , there were 4 kinds of dishes for 2 ppl, we were both too full to finish them, dad packed them and took them home for the next day. i spent my night at grandma's house cos there is no more bed for me at daddy's. thats my first day of 2009. oh, there is a careless lady i have to mention here. we applied a sim card for the new mobile, dad didnt take his ID card at that moment,so we used mine, but that service lady typed my name wrong even if my ID card was on her hands!!!! i didnt find out the mistake as i passed all shifts to dad as soon as i got them from the lady, he is the owner.maybe cos he didnt take glasses at that moment, he didnt find out the problem either untill at about 7pm after we got home, but it was too late to change back, cos their off time in first day was at 5pm  . the next day in the early morning, dad went there to ask, that lady said" we handed up all info last night.we cant do it now. and its not a big deal if there is only one charactor wrong."  the lady sucks!!! The second day of new year, we spent at uncle's, and met another uncle who have liver problem, my gosh, the color of his face was just like the color of corpse  ,even i had fear to look at him more times. i met so many other ppls who had liver problem, some were even had liver cancer,with loads of ascites, jaundice, but none of them was like corpse. then we drove back home in the afternoon and spent my evening beside Liujiang River, my mother River, with my friends and family members, there were fireworks performance!! every 2nd day of new year, the goverment send us this gifts, the fireworks lasted 40 mins as always. with music played, i enjoyed it a lot! thats my 2nd day. 3rd day, we went to zoo with niece, shes still lovable.  4th day,grandma and grandpa of niece came to visit us, we went out for dinner and i was tooo full!!! so the first part of this blog came out! 5th day, i went to hospital for help in the morning, and in the afternoon, went to see the baby doggy of luca, in the evening,all family went out for dinner again, i was a bit full, but its not hard to stand, plus i had reunion in the evening, need strength to have fun  (i always can enjoy my meals at hotel or restautant  ), and that night, i didnt get home untill my 1:20am, and the next morning,i heard that other ppl stayed there untill the entertainment center closed at 4am. the 6th day in the early morning, sister went back to work, she took the early train at 5am, and i was still sleeping  . when i got up,it had been 11am,spent my afternoon at home,and due to dad and mom didnt wanna cook,i went out to have my supper and as always, i enjoyed it. just taking meals outside is a bit costy! and chronicle of my holiday is over now. today, 1st Feb, my works stared!! some pics about new year come next:
1/25/2009 one day after my exam got over, classmates held a party,i joined! although i somehow didnt like the way to reunion, but staying with them, chatting with them is much more important than the method itself. some of classmates became a teacher, some became doctor,some became engineer....,as years pass by, more and more ppl will be busy with their work, their own life, less and less ppl will still stay in this city.there are less and less ppl could be able to reunion. i love my classmates, feel warm staying with them, i miss my life in schools,if only time could be back to those moment to let me experience again. i could recall those lovely friends in high school, Luca, Niang, Chun,Kate, TT, Hui, Lin.....  we were classmates, so, friends forever! wish Luca could treat me better untill he gets another girl as his gf  , wish Niangzi will be my helper forever, wish Chun could be more amuzing.....(selfish me huh?  )
1/19/2009 got a new friends this time in class, 9 months youngers than me, but with similar education background, we have great talks.
the tutor of general practice is humourous, love his classes! but tmr in the morning, have to be absent cos of meeting sister.
sister is flying home tmr, we will meet her at airport, and tmr evening, there will be a big dinner to have, my favorite!
from today, i choose to be a sunny girl, try best to stand in clouds! 1/18/2009 after a long time, i came back here to update the space, actually, i did write down what i experienced during these months.
our spring festival is coming soon, sister will fly back home within a few days.
dad's birthday party will be held soon, 60th birthday is really a big deal!
i asked a few days off from hospital and having my classes right now. medical statistics is such a complicated things! 
i spent hundreds bucks on new coats,and bought 2 pairs of underpants for baby chan,have to ask myself " do you still need shoes n trousers?"
the 2 new coats are what i had no confidence to try, but i found out thats not as fatty as i thought on me. 
doc luo said we will get another 800 bucks for new year, but comparing with what i need to spend, its not so much.
b4 new year comes, i should move to see my biological dad. i recond hes expecting me.but what gift i should bring? he dislike candy or fruit!
the policy that non-english native cant move to china untill they get visa in local bureau sucks!
11/17/2008 明天开始我就要到柳州市第三人民医院进修了,从小就在这医院看病,拿药,从来没想过我在将来的某天,会在这为患者的健康做贡献,明天,我就上路了,一年的时间,我希望我能在这学习更久。三医院不是柳州最好的医院,却是我最熟悉的,离家最近的医院。现在改名叫柳州市第三人民医院了,叫起来有点别扭,我还是喜欢叫“中心医院”,就按我小时候的说法吧。 这次进修不是我的专科——妇产科,而是放射和B超,B超对妇产科是很重要的,做为一个妇产科医生,会做B超会更好。可那放射?学就学点吧,学完这些所有,我并不想转到临床以外的其他科室,所有的这些,都应该是用于丰富我的知识,要服务于我的临床生涯的。临床毕业的学生,如果临床不行,那一无事处。我喜欢看“急诊室的故事”,对于国外临床医生的技术水平,很有感叹。他们的不论年轻,年老的,如果需要,他们可以自己去做切片,自己看细胞;每次查房,他们自己拿起病房里的B超机做超声检查,x-ray片自己读。我自己觉得,不论一个医院的规模有多大,临床医生的本事和权利都应该是全院最大的,这应该就是不论什么检查报告单上都标注着“仅供临床参考”的原因。每每看“急诊室的春天”,我就在希望着:花一年学放射B超,一年学化验病理,然后再回到临床,我现在22岁多,没到23,如果可以按我的思路走下去,到我回到临床的时候也就25岁,一般本科毕业生刚毕业到临床的时候也是24/25岁。对于将来,我在想:我主攻方向还是直接面对病人的临床专业,对于其他的医疗技术辅助检查,我兼职做做,年轻,多学些,到了我成医疗老屁股的时候再定科。 别人有别人的打算,自己要为自己想清楚。
B超同学,我来了。 10/29/2008 actually,took pics when i was with niece last time i went back home,cos of data cable problems,pics didnt get shared untill now.niece is almost 1.5years old,to my surprised, the smart little things could count from 1 to 10 now.and she could recognize me,she could call me" aunt"when she ever see me. u know we dont meet too often,maybe just once per month.i like the moment she pout and pronouce"GuGu"(aunt in chinese) with her lovable smile.her smile is infectious enough to make me give her a kiss.
almost the whole day,stayed with her and dad at zoo,shes naughty, she cant walk steadily,but she ran,as fast as she can,refused u to hold her hands.we were a bit afraid that she may fall down,and hurt herself.but nothing happen,she was fine with her walkable piggy :D.
okok,i would like to show off for a bit, the little lovable baby
darling Mr C,there are some pics u need?
10/11/2008 Yesterday,spent over 300 for a dress, totally black,the first black things for me,showed to dad, unluckily, he gave a comment " its like for funeral?"  whatever,i can wear it in funeral too anyway.i didnt know this brand,its not a big one. but quality is good,and its written "since 2001".there is a poem on the tag, kinda picturesque......
●遇荷
行到水风深处,荷叶连天翻舞,隐见采菱人,莲动小舟归路。稍住,稍住,敛翅绿蜻无数。
●赏荷
容若骄阳和煦,节似翠竹经雨,抓破美人颜,追瓣沁红如缕。花坞,花坞,中夜欲回还驻。
●采荷
无计水边长伫,意欲邀归庭户,笑请采莲人,叶下点篙搬橹。携去,携去,对做绿窗无语。
●忆荷
寂寞徘徊秋圃,不见群芳归处,昨夜梦江南,莲叶半托朝露。休去,休去,且伴晓风私语。
it costed me weeks to find out a dress and took time to determine to shoot it.i didnt know fashion can be that bloody expensive.fashion was not my type,even now, i still love casual wear,feel comfortable with them, but sometimes, being too casual is like evil for young ladies? its the most golden time in ur life, u cant be fashion anymore later.im 22 now,time for that? some classmates of me started it way early b4,i felt they werent like girls,but looked like ladies. i dont know my new image will still be considered like a lady or not in my old mind,but i do buy fashion now,i may not wear it everyday,but for some days.its a bit tense to change my figure,a bit excited too. my sister, the fashion designer told me a few times,black can be forever favorite things to them, its needed in any seasons. this black dress is the first black for me thought,black was not good on me,but this time, feeling is different now,autumn is here, so many summer dresses are on discount,they are nice too,made me have a wish to buy an autumn fashion, plus there was a wedding need to attend,some colleages told me its more beautiful to wear some fashion in my age,and its time for that.last 2 weeks,i held 2000 but didnt have heart to buy a dress which cost 350,during thinking for 2 weeks,i took 350 back home and took that dress with 320.bloddy fashion.
and there is a nice dress in the shop of" Season wind" its a brand from korea, dresses there are more expensive, the one i like was like 650, god, will buy in next life when im a princess.
ok lah, anyway,happy with the new dress i have right now. 10/1/2008 happen to get a song, im told that its a song sang in a wedding, with guitar,from groom to bride,in front of numerous guests. i love the rythem firstly, and look at the lysics,how unalterable the mind of the guy to this girl.
[and another things, its a bit out of expectation,hehe,i didnt know im this terrific untill a guy told me so, even said something like"ur like a gold that i was not mature enough to find out b4."LOL,im that good?? ok, made me more confident now, but be flirty with a girl who is taken is making no sense huh?haha  whatever, thank you for giving me this pride:-)]
here comes the lysics of "love to be loved by you":
i cant believe im standing here
been waiting for so many years and
today i found the queen to reign my heart
you changed my life so patiently
and turned it into something good and real
i feel just like i felt in all my dreams
there are questions hard to answer, cant u see........
baby,tell me how can i tell u
that i love you more than life?
show me how can i show u
that im blinded by your light
when you touch me, i can touch you
to find out the dream is true.
i love to be loved by you
you are looking kinda scared right now,
you are waiting for the wedding vows,
but i dont know if my tongue's able to talk
your beauty is just blinding me,
like sunbeams on a summer steam
and i gotta close my eyes to protect me.
can you take my hand and lead me from here please?
yeah, yeah
i love to be loved
i need to be loved
i love to be loved by you
i know they 're gonna say
our love is not strong enough to last forever,
and i know they 're gonna say that we'll give up
because of heavy weather,
but how can they understand
that our love is just heaven-sent,
we keep on going on and on
cause this is where we both belong.
i love to be loved
i need,yes i need to be loved
i love to be loved by you.
yes,i love to be loved by you
—Marc Terenzi
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