♀~阿里爸爸的家ā lǐ bā bā dê jiā @ N 24° E 109°

      my 1st step of certificate process will be on in 40 hrs,a bit looking forward to it, a bit tense, a bit excited. all ppl in my dept comform me " students like u will absolutely pass it or who else!?" not sure why they say like that but i wish i can pass it of course.im worried too cos i havnt read enough, i didnt read all the things printed on the special reference books, and didnt watch all videoes of  operations,  and some detail may be left. although the failure rate in 1st step is lower, but im a little bit worried that i might be one of them.  well, everyone will worry i think. (will introduce our certificate process properly later) ok lah, my performance will be on 5th July,2:30pm, im going there tmr in the afternoon, will stay at grandma's.(will take pics of the hospital i take exam in if chances are there)

 

      and about some colleages who had took exam a few days ago, they told that examinant asked loads of hard questions which annoyed them.(may wonder why some ppl had taken while some hadnt? maybe cos there are a lot of ppl to take exam while less examinant. and dont worry, little chance to get the same items)well, wish i could get the same item with them anywaysounds like a bit unfair huh? hehehehe, joke lah, whatever

 

    there are so many reference books and documents i have, from book stores, from training center, from net..... it might be one problem of havnt read all, well, one point must be here if we try to look for the reasons of unfinished reviewing, its love of fun. see, even right now, still heading to blog thingsssssssssss? okok lah,  just wish to record my 1st step. im going back to read, goodbye.

 

finally: Pray to god, Let me pass it (btw,remember the wife of that guy who got cancer? let her pass too pls? no more barrier in her way plz?) Thank you!

       heard that money is one of the most complicated things in the world,it will affect a lot and will be effected by loads of things too. ok, a poor girl called Ling experienced it today and got a bit annoyed at the beginning(get back fine now).

take a room here, complete it later.

    8th June is the first anniversary of my job, been working in hospital for a year already,was going to take a cake back hospital to celebrate it with some closed colleague. but the plan got miscarried. u know its a festival on 8th June,its called Duanwu, there is a long history about this day,skip it here. on this day,we make a special things, its called Zongzi in chinese, its pyramid-shaped dumpling made of glutinous rice wrapped
in bamboo or reed leaves,and its bacon,chestnut,green bean,peanuts,sesame and so on inside the dumpling. these possible ingredient could be different from different person. the namable thing is my auties(no matter at dad's side or mom;s side),they all are good at making it, got hereditary from grandma?probably. ok, whatever, anyway,i got many dumplings back. and mom do know i love corn a lot, and its damn cheap in grandma's city,so they bought 2KG for me too. so what i have to carry back hospital is "my clothes,laptop,corn and dumplings". and its about 100 KM distance, there is the third hand to take cake in such a long way? so that, cake is given up.but i miss cake,i like it. yap, will make up soon when im going back my home.

 

OK, Here turn to be a sad news

     i have stayed in hospital for over 2 years(including the year as an intern),met so many patients, with slight disease or serious one, we give them treatment, works or doesnt work, better or worse, even alive or dead, we never think the same would happen on us or even happen around us. we are ready to face the problems on others but not on ourselves, when disease turns to our family members or ourselves,we are so weak,we learn medicine and understand all possbiel results, we think way toooo much, get heavy pressure. maybe would make us live shorter than others who dont understand too much. dad have a friend who worked in radiology dept for over 30 years, and the guy died on the 11th days since he got finaly diagnosist. a colleague of mine lost 3.5kg within 2 days after she got to know the probable disease his husband got. i really cant imagine what i gonna react if some closed family members like dad and mom have serious disease. i know im weak in front those situations. everytime the colleague talked about the disease that her husband got, tears will be around her eyes,i dont know what i can do for her,shes about 8 years older than me and im the first person she talked about her husband's disease with, im honor, but im sorry i dont know what i can do except some general words. i wish i could be some help,but what that could be? right now,im a bit worried, lives are fragile, never can be known the day it ever walk away.dad and mom have been over 50 years,mom has GU which could turn to be cancer, dad looked like nothing wrong except his weight,but i always feel hes sub-healty and his work is too much for his age. maybe the day dad leave me is the day of earthquake on me too,not sure can be survive or not.cant imagine, cant......

 

    OK lah, wish the husband could get the best treatment, and if i could be a help, i will difinitely roll up my sleeve.

     夏天到了，我好象也不得不开始打仗了。天气好热（虽然温度还没有到35/36），我自己也好热啊，才5月，身上开始长红红的小颗颗了，那叫不计其数啊，虽然还没有像去年夏天那么可怕，但是啊，还是比较难受的，爸爸说我这是内火旺盛，那得灭火啊？我自己学的西医在这方面好象没什么特别的方法了，那就中医呗。我那还不到半桶水的中医理论硬着头皮拿自己做实验拉。去药房拿了些中成药吃，然后主要是想拿些中药来泡澡，我给自己的中药处方是这样：金银花20g，野菊花25g, 鱼腥草25g，板蓝根15g。其实我想多放一点金银花，不过这家伙有点贵，我毕竟还没成大款，还是省着点用。（金银花还可以拿来泡水喝呢，也有很好的凉血功效，不过从来就不喜欢喝茶的我干脆留着洗澡用吧。）

    把水烧开了，那些七七八八的东西全部放进去，泡个10 分钟，就倒进澡盆里，放些冷水，成大约40~45度就开洗拉，中间过程一个词概括够了——舒服。省略

    洗完药浴后比较麻烦的就是清扫地面，都是药渣。

    然后把身上的药渣冲掉，舒服。

   今天晚上上夜班，我得全副武装，把花露水啊，风油精啊什么都带上。今天生小孩的多，腥味重，蚊子特容易被引来，而倒霉的我又特招蚊子。得特级护理！！！

   行了，上班打仗去了，88。

5月12号中午，在中国四川,地震了，里氏7.8级(国外报道说是7.9级),好多人遇难,好可怜.看了些新闻，社会上也有很多人捐款,之中最感动的就是在南京的江宁区,一个大约有60/70岁的乞丐,衣衫褴褛,蓬头垢面,连他，都捐了100,那是用零零碎碎的毛票凑起来的啊,路边的民警说平时这老人家在街边乞讨，也没什么吃的.连他,连他,都捐了一张红的.我的捐款数额就别在这里提了，不大好意思.我在这里就想放一些图片，记住5.12

HOLD ON,BUDDY,WE WILL GET U OUT SOON,WE WILL.

 

FOR THE PPL WHO DIED FROM IT,  WE ARE SORRY.

 

LOOK AT THE LEG?BABY,MOM AND DAD ARE HERE, HOLD ON! UR ALL UR DAD AND MOM EVEN HAVE.

 

THEIR BIRTHDAY IS 12TH MAY 2008......... THEIR NAME IS "震生"

 

WE WERE READING IN CLASSROOM, THEN SUDDENLY.....

 

 

PREMIER Wen WHO HAS BEEN 66 YEARS OLD

MOM,FORGIVE ME,NO TIME FOR ME TO SAY I LOVE YOU ALREADY.

 

So many troubles to China in 2008, at the beginning,its snowstorm,in spring,its riot in Tibet and some bandwagon jumpers made trouble to torch in foreign countries, and sumer is coming,earthquake came too, but all of those wont make us fall down, we all will join together and go through,earthquake is horrible, but human nature will warm u. 

I Love You,China!

just a short blog,then will jump to bed.........................

      i just finished reign over me although it has been in my pc for quite a long time.the love of charlie to his wife and daughter touched me a lot though i do know its not a healthy way. how many guys could really love someone like that? how many guys will make themselves suffer cos of dead ppl?yeah,yeah,its not a good way,but somehow,it shows the strong love, i think many ppl value it, at least,i do, i value it sooooo much,i would be lucky enough to have a husband who love his wife that much like charlie do?i dont know,but i never won any lotto b4,so whats my luck?

okok,the result of the movie is charlie get out of extremely sadness under the help of his friends and hospital.

           JIMPING to somewhere, snore...............

         i went back home again on 17th,for Luca's B'Day,actually,it was about 3 ppl,but 2 of them cancelled it at the last min bbq started,which annoyed me a bot(between bit and lot),dont wanna mention it again, cos i heard anger do make ppl live shorter.anyway,Luca still kept it going on,i went to shopping mall with him just at the moment i got my city,helped him get everything prepared.then on 19th,our bbq started, in Longtan Park,actully,it was not our first choice,Luca said he had been to this park 100 times maybe. but without car,we cant go to the place far away with these much things.the point is having fun together somewhere,celebreate his birthday,and thats all.i would like to take as many pics as we can, but guys are just not so cooperative,they prefered to stand aside to watch,and asked why u girls are so into taking pics huh.whatever lah,just let them.but group pics are certainly available.

 

 

 

 

 

 

PICS ARE GOT FROM THE SPACE OF A FRIEND.

     以前老说，乡镇的人淳朴好客,没有真正细细体会过淳朴的真正含义。来乡镇医院上班有9个月余了，直到这段时间，我真正享受了一次所谓淳朴给你带来的温暖。

     在3月底（25号），想回柳州听一个concert，中午两点半下班，回到宿舍收拾些东西，提前一个小时出门前往车站，可是，到车站的汽车连影都没有，我不敢久等，等了15分钟以后我就决定自己走路，边走边等吧。走了好久，车还没有来，当然也没有看到车站的身影（确切地说我根本不知道车站到底离医院有多远，我只知道沿着这条路一直走下去没错，大约走了快30分钟，眼看火车到车站的时间要到了，我很着急，左顾右盼。这时一个骑着摩托车的，大约有40/50岁的人过来，我问他：“师傅，请问这离车站还有多远？”他一笑，说：“那还早了，姑娘你赶车啊？上来吧，我载你去。”我听了真是高兴，然后也有那么1%的担心，怕是坏人。我上了他的摩托车，他也一直沿着这条路往前，路上我们也没说什么，摩托车开得不快，我一直也注意时间，离火车到站还有15分钟的时候我忍不住了问他：“离车站还有多远？”“马上到了。”后来，在火车预计到达的时间前5分钟，我到车站了，然后赶紧下车，下车的同时我告诉他我在当地医院上班，在妇产科，想着将来也许我可以帮上他什么，赶紧道谢，他摆摆手：“小事小事嘛。你赶快过去上车吧，车可能马上到了。“我笑了一下，再说了声谢谢就走了。后来火车晚点15分钟，我按时上车，顺利到家了。都不知道这大伯姓什么。

    然后就在前天，29号上午，外婆过80大寿，得回他那一起庆祝。我这次提前了一个多小时出门，遇到一样的问题，这次可没有好心的大伯用摩托车载你去拉，怎么办，我等了半个小时。没有车影，都快放弃在这小镇上车了，打算用其他的方法。这时眼睛一亮看见一拖拉机，陆陆续续有人在上。我在想是不是这车到火车站啊，那我也可以顺路搭一下吧？我走过去，上面可以坐的地方都坐了人了，我问他们到火车站吗，他们你看看我，我侃侃你，然后其中一人问我“你的车几点到啊？”“8点40分。”“那不知道还来得及不，这拖拉机速度慢。”另外一个大婶接着说：“还有40 分钟呢，应该还来得及。”第三个人说：“现在马上走，应该还来得及的，不过现在司机不在，不知道他要等对久才到啊。”另外一个年纪轻点的：“到火车站的汽车也应该马上到了的。”..............（七嘴八舌.....）突然，有一个女的喊了一声，所有的讨论都停住了“司机来了，马上走了。”原来都在讨论的人，现在都马上在叫我赶快上来，然后他们帮我拿着东西，拉我上那拖拉机，要知道，我可是第一次坐这玩意（不是，没有坐的了，只有站的位置而已。）他们把他们放东西的地方腾出来，让我站到前面去，站后面危险啊。觉得好可爱的一群人。一车的妇女在帮你出主意，又一下全部安静了，让你赶快上车，然后把位置腾出来。后来我们就搭着这拖拉机一路颠簸到了粮所，粮所就在火车站对面，“车还没到，姑娘你赶快过去吧。”然后他们帮我拿这东西，我跳下拖拉机。道谢后过路等火车，后来一样等了10多分钟火车才到，最后一样是顺利上火车，顺利到达目的地。

     也许对社会冷酷的事情看得太多，突然有些惊讶我遇到了这档子好事，我告诉爸爸的时候，你猜爸爸问我什么：“他们只收你1块钱吧？”（因为坐汽车从医院到火车站是一块钱，虽然比较远）你看你看，当我告诉他没有人问我要钱的时候，他很惊讶。哎，我们生活在那种斤斤两两都算得很清楚的地方太久了。

     我要谢谢他们，谢谢这些帮我的人，谢谢你们。

 

最近有满多人都说"你都不上我空间灌水的!"我有苦衷拉，明显的啊,他们的空间要不就要密码，要不就一天写点天堂的东西，我看没懂就没有兴趣搞下一次了好灭?理解我这种纯理科的人,语言没过关，晓得我高考失败在哪灭?就是语文!所以拉，原谅我拉!
   田丽那个妹崽今天也让我去他空间，他老鸽子居然怪我,妈妈的列，他搞的新空间都没告诉我，还怪我不去波,奶那个扭!无奈!今天下班回来，去他新空间小瞄了一组，吗的,都是议论文,我好乱烦的,初中二年级开始学写议论文,虽然我的作文一般情况下还是可以的,但是你晓得灭?我最讨厌的就是议论文,初二那大半年的"每周一篇",搞死我克,不过还好拉，我幸存料.直到初三以后，改自由文体了，我才得回来继续我的记叙文,不说在行不在行，起码我不烦.一直到高三，记叙文都是我的主打歌.哪怕是现在，我的日志，不管中英文,都是记叙文体,或者说记叙占大部分，我喜欢记叙文拉,有事说事,不喜欢一天耍嘴皮子写什么议论!通篇的议论是我最腻的拉，有关生活的情感的还可以小读一下，那种什么国家大事的,我立马关克好灭?!几乱烦.没喊我浇水啊!
   也不是说我只喜欢看记叙文,其实我喜欢看的就是那种真真切切存在在周围的事情，喜欢看那种写自己心情的blog,这个才叫日志嘛,自己的空间用来记自己的东西不好咯?那种什么国家大事,不缺你这一个地方记录拉.如果这个人够勤快更新自己的日志，就可以从日志里面了解一个人的心路历程,以后回味起来那是很有意思的.以前我们小的时候没有搞什么空间,但是我有一段心路历程,记载在纸上，可以因为和妈妈赌气，全部烧掉了，后悔ING.那段经历是我人生里面比较重要的,但是我全部失去了，连痕迹都没有，好可惜.所以现在，我的心情，如果我觉得可以写出来,我就写在QQ或者MSN里面，MSN空间已经有差不多3年的历史了，QQ空间好象也是，不过QQ空间嘛,总是比较迟钝的,没大喜欢(这些年有点进步).MSN我大多数都写英文，有的很垃圾，不过回头看看，我以前的生活是这个样子的也可以了，我中文都没有什么文采,更不用说英文了，大俗人一个.别人看不看无所谓拉，我自己看得到就行.
   行了，牛就吹到这里了，本来好象有满多讲的,现在被分心料,然后看来chandana今天中午是不回家吃饭了的,得了，我洗澡完了打仗去.


  just saw the space of Zhang Lin,that sweet girl,she told me she will make something for those pics i took on my B'Day,well,was kinda looking forward to it,and tonight,i saw her space,but seems like all materia she used is made by me(most of them)?well,its fine lah,cos the pics i took are awesome,super me,haha.about my special B'Day,its special cos of a guy staying with us at that night.it just happened by accident,its not a tendency,not at all,so dont treat it so serious,its just something in fairytale though it looked like true.maybe its someone's fault to make it look like true.the stuffs that looked like in reality somehow brought me back to the passed time,woke up my feeling which has stood in the bottom of my heart for a few years,well,forget it,anyway,i finally got an answer from someone,its not out of my expectation,but still,kinda down of course,wonder how can i treat him like a common friend or so-called best friend? maybe i can,but need ages? and chandana sent something to me,felt like he started to test me or something like that,felt soooo frustrated,tears came out immediately at the moment i got his txt and his msgs,well,80% or above,the tears are not about the answer i got,its about the sms chandana sent me,well,but i wont blame him,its my fault and for him,its unfair,there was always an another guy stands in my heart,if i were chan,i cant bear it.ppl all told me its wrong to let chandana know all this,well,maybe they are right,but i just cant hide anything,no matter to that guy or chandana,im faithful,no lie,just wonder the point of being faithful to that guy?katy was right,whats the point of meeting that guy again?whats the point?guys are just that cruel,from katy's nigel to that guy i liked for ages,all is the same,how many innocent,sweet and responsible guys left in this wild world?chany may be a goodone,but hes even belong to me?hes really theone god sent to me?all right lah,chany is making his decision now,i dont know what decision would be,but i will respcet all he makes,hes a sweet little thing.(well,there is pity,cos i didnt take my cam support back my city,so there are few pics of me on my B'Day,shame shame shame)btw,chany sent me a birthday cake thought what written there is for elder,hehe,its all right lah,thank you,sweet baby, at last,i have a question to anyone who can read it:
          Which would you prefer? cruel truth or sweet lie? and why?

昨天中午和防疫组的医生下村去玩,天气还可以,现在写日志时间不够了，明天再写，先占个位置.

 

现在已经是２８号了，我的日志还没没完成呢，现在有点不想写了，写些其他的东西吧．

 

今天看了朋友的空间，里面的一点东西让我太有感触了．

最后一天和他说话的时候，他问我是不是开始讨厌他了，我和他解释了很多，我是想保护自己而已，保护我想保护的东西．

觉得感情的事情总是那么无奈．